Self Improvement Day 4 by ausjulie Blog entry

Blog: One month to live - 30 day challenge
by ausjulie

Self Improvement Day 4

Be positive and avoid the negative

Date: 4/28/2008 3:56:26 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1857 times

This day was hard for me, the book talks a lot about God and Jesus. At first I read it and was thinking there was no way I could do this. But then I remembered God is many things to many people so I looked at it as challenging myself to connect to my higher power and live positively.

Task 1. What are the current barriers to spiritual health in your life? In other words, what keeps you form connecting to God as your primary source of spiritual life?

Honestly I think my biggest problem has been my environment. I use to live in a magic place surrounded by amazing beauty. It was so easy to connect to my higher power there because I felt it all around me in the beauty of the landscape and in the energy in the air. It reminded me each day how lucky I was and to be thankful and make sure I repaid. I also worked in community organization with elderly people and people with a disability. They inspired me and fed my spirit. I worked with amazing people who stimulated my mind and made me want to be a better person. I also had friends around me that our conversations inspired me. I’m not saying I was completely connected and living truly how I want to…but I was much more conscious. My spirit was growing and evolving. Now I live in Houston have very little beauty around me. I have not made a new group of stimulating friends and my job is really low priority and in no way stimulated or inspiring. I have forgotten to make sure these things are in my life and I have not been living consciously. I want to be closer to my higher power and I will achieve that but consciously choosing to be a positive force in this universe. Live without the negativity, don’t let it creep in.

Task 2: Write a letter or prayer to God, being as honest as you can about your present disappointment and frustrations. Consider how these problems or issues might be preparing you for a more fruitful season.

To my spirit, my soul, my universe, my higher power

I find myself taking a 30 day challenge to live the way I want/know is true. This challenge has made me aware of how I have not being living consciously for so long now. My favorite Buddhist saying is “its not how long you have forgotten its how soon you remember” so I am writing to say I am going to remember from now on.

I will constantly think of my higher power in my daily decisions and maintain my connection to it. I will be a positive energy force in this universe and remember that every action I take every thought I have effects each and every member. I want my energy to be positive to rejuvenate my higher power. I want my spirit to sore and my soul to feel complete/whole/worthy.

I am not living my best life and I want to make changes that will get me more connected to the universe. I want to especially move forward on my dreams of being in a worth while occupation practicing love each day and contributing. I know if I make these changes my spirit will sore even higher, my soul will feel worthy and I will be contributing to the forces of this universe in a positive pure way. This will give me greatest pleasure and sense of accomplishment. This will make my life fulfilled and enable me to say if I only had 30 days to live – I would not change a thing. Me living the way I know I want to will give me all the things I want. It will make my relationship with my husband even stronger, it will reflect in my kids and the choices and lives they will live. It will help others and ultimately help all. This is my greatest wish and me striving towards it will not be difficult but more a pleasure.

Some thoughts I have had thinking about this:
My spirit is what connects me to my higher power and it is what will return to my power if I live my life well. My soul will be reborn. My mind is my consciousness that allows me to evolve my spirit. My body is the vehicle in which my mind can operate. All of this is my spiritual health. My connection is my consciousness. My consciousness directs my actions and my actions will allow my spirit to grow. The more conscious decisions I make the greater the growth of my spirit.
To be true and pure and live positively my actions will be for the benefit of the greater good which benefits all.
What do I need to do to connect to my higher power, awaken my consciousness and to live how I want:
 Do not enter into negativity, do not think it, do not say it do not act it
 Seek out environment that feeds my spirit, acknowledge it and bask in the beauty of it. Renew my energy and my spirit
 Treat each and every encounter with other people as important as they are. Each conversation has something to teach me each person has a lesson to give me. Take the time to recognize what they are and act on them
 Listen more

Task 3:How are you doing in the areas of communication and confession? How would you practice them differently if you knew you only had one month to live?
I am doing better at confession and communication. I am conscious. I make my confession and I move on. When I know better I do better. Don’t regret just move forward with each and every minute I have. If I had only one month to live I would want to be constantly conscious and never forget!