Doritos & Beer by athina Blog entry

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by athina

Doritos & Beer

...cause I'm worth it!!!

Date: 11/4/2006 2:42:22 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 3293 times

Well today I had my usual fruits and nuts, and a salad. But a couple hours ago, I got some cravings for junk. So I went to the variety store and, rather than getting some 'compromise' junk food like unsalted popcorn, I got exactly what I felt like having: Doritos (Tex Mex) and two small cans of beer.

And while I'm trying to feel guilty, I can't. I don't think it's so bad to go ahead and give in to a craving every once and a while, especially since I hadn't had any junk whatsover during the week.

And let me tell you, those Doritos were so good, especially paired with the beer. And since I've satisfied those cravings, they're gone. And I don't feel any guilt whatsover because I am not pressuring myself to follow any pre-determined diet or plan. My usual pattern, when on a diet, would be to give in to the craving, then proceed to binge on all sorts of junk with promises that I'll 'be good' and 'get back on track' the next day.

Well there is no 'getting back on track' when there is no 'track' to speak of! Next time I get a craving, I'll let myself have whatever I desire. And afterwards I'll just continue the next day eating as I usually do, starting my day with the coffee and cigarette I love so much.

And speaking of coffee, funny thing happened today. I usually drink two coffees, one in the a.m. and one in the afternoon. So, around 5pm, I was working at my computer and mentally preparing myself to get up and make the second coffee, when I kept on postponing the task. Then the phone rang, so I postponed it again until finally realising the source of my procrastination: I really didn't want that coffee! I felt perfectly wide awake and there was no need for it. So, for the first time in a long time I only drank one coffee during the day.

And it was strange how I was trying to convince myself that I needed that coffee. I was mentally evaluating all the reasons why a coffee was necessary: the taste, the sweetness, a nice 'pick-me-up' for the afternoon...but to no avail. I just didn't want it.

Anyhow, on a different note, my weight this morning registered at 154 pounds for a grand total of 1 pound lost since Nov. 1.

Now, I don't really believe in the scale so much anymore since reading an interesting article a few weeks ago, the source of which I cannot remember. It was based on a study conducted where the participants were subjected to a 1000 calorie diet, and 2.5 hours of daily exercise. All lost weight of course, however their fat levels were being tested during the interim with some interesting conclusions: real 'fat' loss did not occur until after the 20th day.

So I personally conclude that 'real' weight loss only comes with a stable lifestyle change and that means consistent eating patterns over the long term. Having said that, I'm not so excited about the one pound weight loss nor am I excited about the weight loss during the next week. I will continue to weigh myself out of habit, but am sure that the real results of my efforts will be realised over the long term in the way I feel in relation to my energy levels.

Maybe my progress so far does not relate so much to the 1 pound loss as it does to my lack of desire for that coffee this afternoon. Perhaps what they say about refined carbs is true, that they really do slow you down. Only time will tell...