Clarification & My Current Situation

Regarding multiple usernames, I just posted about this in response to Hopinso and I would suggest that you also read it.

Regarding Aye.. Of course I wouldn't have a sexual relationship with someone without knowing their name and also getting to know them for a period of time! The reason that I said "Harold, or Anthony, or whatever his name really is..." is because I knew him as Aye, and he told me that his name was really either Anthony Harold H. or Harold Anthony H., and I don't recall which came first, and I relied on him to tell me the truth, and who the hell knows if he was honest about his real name or not?! I didn't check his ID! As I said, I knew him as Aye here on CureZone, and in the numerous emails we exchanged, and on the phone, and after we met in person. My decision to become intimate with him was not one that was made impulsively and I do not care for the manner in which you are portraying it!

Regarding my current situation, I have reached out to people as best as I am presently able. Consider this... I have no money, I have about 15 minutes of time on my Cell Phone , I am staying where the land line does not have long distance, is also not working right, and does not have any sort of answering device, plus the owner frequently turns the ringer off because he has his own Cell Phone , I have just downloaded Skype, although I haven't had the time to figure it all out yet, I have less than a quarter tank of gas in my car, I have an internet connection although I am certain that my computer is hacked (it even shuts off by itself!), I am swamped with work emailing attorneys and other people involved in this situation and sometimes lose work that I've done because my computer shuts down, the personal belongings that I have left are scattered between my mother's house and where I am staying, it is often challenging for me to find things, and there is simply not enough time in the day for me to do everything that I need to! There is NOTHING about poverty that I don't now understand, and most people don't realize that while there may be all sorts of services available to people, it requires that they be able to get to them!

Also, it takes quite a bit of energy to tell people over and over what I have been through to try give them an accurate picture of what has occurred and to ask for their assistance. This is not a problem when they are willing to help me, although it is rather taxing on me when they are not. I simply do not have the time and energy to waste! In an effort to start bringing some money in I designed some wristbands that are now posted on CureZone thanks to Dusan. I also have some other designs that I want to do, although I have yet to be able to produce an image in order to submit for them. I've also been working very hard on putting together a written account of the events that occurred which I spent about 12 hours on in the last day, and now I am posting a few messages on CureZone because I have not been on the site for a while and would like to address posts and work on my forum.

I acknowledge that I am not the best about asking for help. I am very independent and a do-it-yourself kinda gal, and it is somewhat difficult for me to reach out for assistance. However, in this situation I am asking anyone and everyone if they can be of assistance in whatever way possible. This is NOT just about me, and I am doing what I can in order to derive meaning and benefit from what has happened to me, not only for myself, but also for others who may not be able to speak out! I also have to be very careful in all my communications as I know very well that everything that I do or say will be subject to scrutiny, and that is not the most comfortable situation, particularly when I am having some of the spiritual experiences that I am and I know that the vast majority of people would not understand. Neverhteless, I wouldn't trade them and it is a small price to pay for what is unfolding for me. And it is not a single flower that is unfolding, it is a whole damn garden, lol!