Just how do we grow up spiritually? Rudy challenges us to recognize the situation(well described in this posting). Then to refuse to be part of the game that is being played on us(yet played on us ultimately with our consent, isn't it, because we chose to experience death). Strangelove resolves not to be a part of this realm again. So, it follows that the "how" is worked out by (1) recognizing/ accepting at some level, the immense spiritual realm of deception that plays with us, including the Librarian. Then (2) as free human beings, making an act of will to love; and to live in, for, and through Love. (The "how" I need is a type of GPS system; when I get off track, I need to hear myself yapping to myself,"recalculating" and find my way back by way of(1) recognition of the reality of the spiritual world, with all its malevolence and enormous power and strength for helping me to navigate--my angels? Rudy has seen angels--and (2) to keep my will focussed on the destination.) So, now, how do I strengthen my will when the storms of doubt and distractions (pain, pleasure) of my body overwhelm me? How? If it's in my will, my determination, to resist delusion, I've got to keep this will thing in good shape; and when I am beaten down physically, emotionally, bereft from lack of love on earth...How do I keep my resolve? Ideas anyone? A health club for building up the will? And what if the "health club" is full of broken equipment, bad instructors, that are used by the Librarian? Rudy, do you think, say, habits might help the will? Say, the habit everyday of reminding ourselves of what is going on, where we want to go, of tiny loving acts, such as being kind in traffic instead of grim and mean? But then, if habit helps the will, I need to form good habits, spiritually speaking. I'm in over my head suddenly. Have a good day.