Yes, it really is. It sort of has become chronic in me as I do it with all people- even strangers on the street almost... If someone trips and hurt themselves five meters away from me it is almost like if I'd feel guilty, but not quite. I remember a friend of mina picked me up at the airport once and he got a parkingticket while he was waiting for me. I just feel like those kind of things are my fault, not that he was trying to make me feel that way, but I get intense anxiety and somehow feel unworthy and just like I am so much trouble to everyone, to the point that I should not really exist. That is the feeling I get, it is quite sad, thinking that it might have been how I felt as a child, not knowing no-one has the right to make me feel guilty.