Re: Reassurance For My Soul

I hate that you are having the troubles that are scaring you so much. I think most everyone on here is struggling to carry on at times. I think it's actually many times for most of us on here. It's not easy being so incredibly sensitive that even an unexpected sound feels like it's going to carry you to your death bed.

You know I have the wrinkles on my hands and feet, loss of muscle, and starting to have some problems with my teeth due to my thyroid, also there are many times I do not even have the strength to do simple things to care for myself. My bath times are as follows:

1.) Depending on the day, hope to God walking to the bathroom isn't going to kill me or make my health a lot worse.

2.) lie in the tub while my husband turns the shower on and allow him to wash me from head to toe. If I have the strength, then I help him with washing something small.

3.) Ask myself if I now have the strength to brush my teeth and if so, I do and head back to the bedroom and either he dresses me or I dress myself depending on how much strength I have.

Plus, when brushing my teeth I need to be sitting in the tub, standing in front of the mirror is too exhausting.

My day usually involves me trying to eat a lot to keep my Sugar stable and popping what feels like 100's of vitamins throughout the day. I'm lately just lying here in bed, spend time reading bible to strengthen me and keep me from going off the deep end at times and spend some time in prayer for you guys as well as myself and family.

Then I try to spend as much time with my kids in here as possible and try to listen to what they have to say so that they will not feel neglected, and if I die, they will remember their mommy as someone who always had time for them. However, that doesn't work out perfectly cause a lot of times I have to dismiss them to another room so that I don't get overwhelmed by all the conversation which makes me feel like I am going to die. Not exaggerating, literally feels I might die from too much conversation. Of course some days are better than others. If I build up enough strength I will be slightly physical in playing with them but that doesn't last but a minute or 2.

Can't watch lately anything that involves a lot of physical anything going on because literally, even the thought of doing physical things exhausts me as if I had done them myself. Which makes me feel super ill.


I spend a lot of time studying alternative therapies like everyone else on here to try and find new things that may help strengthen my adrenals while I give them time to heal.

Of course I am now making small progress but even that is subject to change in this disease.

I get terrified at times to be honest, but being so scared makes you so much more ill then doing something physical does in this illness and all it's going to do is make you so much worse and impede your progress, if not stop it all together.

A huge part of getting better is not thinking about this illness everyday. Easier said than done, but occupying your mind with things that relax you and make you happy can do wonders for your adrenal health.

So, what i would say to you is to please realize you are probably in the beginning stages of this illness and a lot of us would trade places with you in a heart beat. (Your cortisol tests seem to show you as beginning stages because your cortisol is high) It means you are more than likely not going to croak, and that you will have an easier time recovering. That says so much for you! Put your chin up and smile, as hard as it is, and realize that your recovery doesn't have to be what ours is.

I"m not making light of what your going through at all! I truly feel for you because it's terrifying. But know that your adrenals are probably not as damaged as some of the others on here so, with time, a more positive outlook, and plenty of nutrients and supplements you will be one of the quickest ones to recover:) It's not instant. But it really will get better.

Also, if reading about anything in your health causes anxiety then don't read it. I get anxious reading what could happen and try to avoid it. It's when I avoid those things and fill them with positive things that I notice a leap in my health recovery. You can't altogether avoid it but avoid as much as possible.