I need some guidance/help very bad.

I don't know what has changed, a month ago I just felt drunk/spacey all the time.

now i'm having random crying spells, suicidal thoughts 10 times a day, out of body experiences, my nerves cringe all day, i feel like my arms are not my own.

I've been following a slow taper for my benzos, my last cut was only 1mg, i'm down to 11mg now. It's been two weeks since my last cut.

still doig the gallon of veggie juice(carrot, celery, apple, cucumber), 5 tbspon superfood everyday. rice, with tomatoes/onions/peppers/avocados, virgin coconut oil, Sea Salt , sometimes turkey once or twice a week with my rice. almond butter for some extra fat as i'm so skinny. ACV with all meals, few days ago added fresh garlic in with acv at dinner. I even added some lentils in not long ago, but they made me way too gassy. Also tried oatmeal but the very thought of it makes me wanna puke.

Still taking IF1 1 or 2 a day just to keep myself moving.

I don't understand why the past week this feeling wont go away, adrenals? need more food?

I'm in a really bad spot mentally an unsure what to do. Currently i'm fighting back the urge to crawl into a ball an cry for no reason, my whole body feels like it's going to seize up, it's hard to explain. If it is benzo, why now, why so severe? it's never been like this. even with the larger cuts.