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Its hard to really understand what your situation is but I can only imagine what you have gone through. Did you know that faith is actually a gift. You can pray for faith, more faith and then more. I understand what you mean about acceptance meaning giving up wich leaves to hopelessness and I would have to say it depends on what you are fighting against or what you are not accepting. If I became terminally ill, I would probably not accept it unless I was in my 90's or something. That is on one hand but on the other, there is a whole new deck of cards to deal. What if? What if I die? Do I sit back and die gracefully or do I fight it and not accept it to my last breath? Which would be easier? Acceptance or fighting and frustration that may lead to a miracle?