at my wit's end

Dear Andreas,

I mentioned in a previous post to you that I have been finished 7 liver flushes, have been bowel cleansing simultaneously as well as have changed my diet to a very clean one (vegetarian). I am doing this in order to get rid of my cystic acne. The problem is that I just seem to have made things worse--I used to have bad skin earlier too but now after I have started on the cleansing path it has become so bad that I fear to leave my house at times. After reading your book freedom from judgement, I feel like it has helped me deal quite a bit with such issues, yet its bothersome to explain to every new person I meet that I cant help it and that this is just the way my skin is...Also, I cannot say that it is because of the Herxheimer reaction because its been 7 months since I started cleansing.

My last 2 flushes released almost very few to no stones...yet I keep getting newer acne...I also do colonics after every liver flush so I dont know what the problem really is. Why are things getting worse?? Lately things have gotten to the point where I am getting green colored pus filled painful cysts on my cheeks--something I've never seen before...I am really at my wits' end Andreas..
When I started the cleansing process I thought that I would be done in at 4-5 months time but this seems to be going on forever. The problem is that I will be getting married in a few months time and I want to get back to my normal self at least by then. What do you think is causing this??? Is there any way I could stop the new acne? I feel like I've opened a pandora's box just when I didnt need to....Is there any way I can end this Andreas??? Do you think that stopping the cleansing will help in any way?? I really want to clear up my skin soon as I am tired of this process which seems to be unending. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel for me. I feel like Im fighting a losing battle.

Thanks for reading this long mail. You are a great source of inspiration for me in these troubled times and I have to let you know that I have found much relief and peace by reading your book freedom from judgement.

regards,
BK