I would love to hear more about your story.
I have had a similar experiences in different circumstances. One experience was when I had just had a baby and my back was in extreme pain. I asked for pain medication. The nurse kept having to try different pain medications on my because nothing was working. She said she had given me enough pain medication to put out a horse, but I was still up and pacing the floor crying.
I finally went back into the dark room and sat on the bed. I began to see something that looked like neon signs. It was a Ram's head in lights and it was moving up and down. Every time it went down the horns would unravel, so to speak and fall like springs, and then go back in place when the head went up. I had just given birth to a boy in the month of the Ram. He is an Aries. Then I began to see myself just like I was in front of myself alive and moving. I could see myself at any age I thought of. Then I began to see people in my life that I didn't like because they had somehow hurt me. First my father's mother appeared. I couldn't see her as she had been. I could only see her as a beautiful person and she told me about herself,why she was the way she was, and appologized for not being able to recognize her behavior for what it was. She told me how much she really loved me, and asked for my forgiveness. Then I saw my sister and mother one after the other and the same thing happened with them. It was a beautiful experience.
Another beautiful experience in that light was a morning I was camping with my youngest son. I saw my first husband come to me. We had been divorced about 17 years by this time. When he came to me he was young and very beautiful. It was a beauty that I couldn't began to relate. He was spiritually perfect. He was so happy to see me and greeted me with tremendous love. He didn't have one speck of negative about him. I could feel his unconditional love and acceptance for me. We loved and laughed and danced. He was the loving person I wished all of my life I could find. I was healed from all of the pain and damage he heaped on me in real life. He had been a monster of a human being. He was mentally ill, alcoholic, sadistic, abusive, frightening, and became ugly. He was dangerous to himself and others.
When I woke up I felt something was wrong with my older son and so we packed up and went home and I tried to find him. I discovered that he was grieving. His father had just commited suicide at midnight the day I was dreaming of him. He was only 45 years old.
So, he really did come to me in spirit. I was seeing him as he truly was. He was a perfect spirit in every way. I realized that no matter how you are in life, or what you do, you leave here with nothing negative. It all stays behind.
I would give you my email, but I am not comfortable with advertising it for all to see.