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Day 12, ten affirmations
ten affirmations
Date: 2/26/2010 6:52:44 AM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1450 times * Today it is progress, not perfection and that has to be good enough.
* Today I am willing to serve those around me as an ambassador of God's Goodness and Grace.
* Today what goes on in my head is not reflected in all of my actions, I have self-control.
* Today I am willing to make amends as the need arises, I do not cower.
* Today I am rich with God's Power and Joy.
* Today I can welcome people into my life and have true love, service, wisdom and friendship to offer.
* Today I can not ask for anything from anyone and have all I need.
* Today I am sober, loving, kind, and mature.
* Today I can say 'no' to people I serve when it will serve and protect our relationship.
* Today I am not subserviant, I am strong with dignity and maturity.
* Today I have true power and use it wisely.
* Today I am all I wish to be.
* Today I believe I am beautiful, truly God's beautiful daughter.
13 today. Did my morning prayer, meditation/journaling. Now to shower, dress, go in for voluntary overtime (I am blessed to have it), meet my new sponsor in the other village, do step work and go to a meeting.
Last night at the meeting of 30 people I sat in a room with ex #1, ex #2, and my ex-sponsor. It was tight. I prayed through the whole thing and focused in my core "God is love, God can HEAL all, I can absorb God's love and send it to others." I just kept focusing on that over, and over, and over. My ex-sponsor and I hugged and rejoiced afterward to see one another. It was a true joy. Ex#1 and I hugged and he asked me for a ride home but I could only direct him to a man in the program who was going that way (for his safety and mine), and ex #2 didn't hover around like he had previously on Sunday and Tuesday. He simply left and I continually sent blessings of God's love and healing for whatever is between us toward him whenever he came in my sight or mind. God is all powerful, I have to believe this.
I pulled over on the way home to just get myself together. I was driving in rage and erratically. I left my sponsor with hurt feelings over my interpretation of something she said to me, I was upset over my ex #2 and I being estranged, and I cannot stand that ex#1 is asking me to do so many things now that he has lost his license. I prayed for right thought, peace and calm. I just wanted to drive into a tree I was so enraged that nothing is what I hoped it would be. I am not what I hoped I would be. If I were, wouldn't things be different? Dashed expectations? You bet. Selfishness and self-centered ness. That is the root of my trouble. Like a child I was.
Came home and called my sponsor. She advised 'YOU ARE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO TAKE ANYONE'S INVENTORY, EVER. IF YOU POINT ONE FINGER OUT, THERE ARE THREE POINTING BACK. YOU MUST PICTURE THAT ALWAYS. CARRY 'AS BILL SEES IT' WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO TO DEAL WITH YOUR EMOTIONS.' That's what she said and that's what I'll do.
Bed at 11, up at 7. Progress, not perfection. 8 hours of sleep, no more and no less. Did my morning routine, now I'm off to shower and go to work. Not a bad start, truly. I am on the beam.
Peace to all I encounter today. May I be peaceful, mature and truly unselfish and balanced today.
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