A friend

:)))). I'd like to refer you to the natural healing forum and this post that I just finished reading:

//www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1772082#i


I just love the people over there. It seems like they've got positive energy bursting from every seam.

We gotta learn to balance ourselves by allowing our anger, pain, despair and suffering out when we need to. But then, learning skills to transform our reality not only physically, but mentally too, so that we aren't stuck there adding mental suffering to the physical needlessly.

A quote that I clipped from a magazine a decade ago:
"Any idiot can enjoy a good day. It's people who figure out how to enjoy a bad day who have something going for them."

I'm not big on calling anyone an idiot, but I liked the idea. I believe that we all have the capacity to learn this skill and we are NOT idiots just because we haven't. Maybe no one has taught us. Maybe we are stubborn. Maybe we feel like our anger is protecting us. There are thousands of reasons why a person might be in the habit of suffering more than they have to.

Who can be your friend in this time of darkness? A journal? A tree? The neighbor's cat? The crickets? A candle flame?

I've started transforming my room (my childhood bedroom) into a bright, light, clean open space for love. For the past four months it's been a storage unit for my sick body and the stuff that I thought I might need. Yesterday I gathered all of the letters and postcards from my friends and my students and made a little alter. And today i gathered all of the seashells and feathers that I've picked up the last few times that I've had the energy to walk to river at the end of my street. My bedroom will be my friend. It will represent my internal healing in the outer world. I guess it's home now. My little cancer self has a shell!