Hi Wombat,
You wrote..., "Hell, I just really don't feel alright with the world right now. & I do think that that's o.k.
or I guess it will be..."
It is far better than o.k..., it is a profound and beautiful revelation. When ones world outward leaves them disappointed, empty, confused..., seize those moments, they are a gift. A signpost to turn you inward. A universal wink and a nod that what you seek, and more..., is within.