Hello everyone. I know there is sparse posting to this page, but I'm trying anyway.
In the last few years I have experienced some horrible traumatic events and illnesses. I have also been no angel during this time, or any other time. Someone briefly mentioned to me that since I was such a "problem child" all my life that it's probably karma coming back to me. In order to deal with what life dished out, I reacted in anger, violence, revenge, and drank/did drugs to cover my feelings. I have tried all types of "cures" for my ailments from westernized medicine to natural cures and meditation. I have delt with my demons & past with deep meditation and radical changes in my thinking and actions, and how I just deal with people and the world. No more drugs, drinking, or smoking. No using other people, gossiping, setting people against eachother, and no cheating or lying either. Like I said before, you realize the error of your ways and that you are the one CAUSING your own misfortune & illnesses, you tend to see the light.
Things now seem to be on an upswing. I am getting physically better as well as emotionally and spiritually.
I was wondering about this energy and Karma as well. People have said I should go for a "cleansing". What does this entail and how to I go about it? I have already tried to make amends for all I have done to people and I have started to pay people back for all I have taken. Is there anything I can do to make up for all I've done in the past and clear myself? I know I will not rest easy or find any peace until I have cleared myself. Please, if anyone has any ideas or advice, do not hesitate to tell me. Thank you in advance,