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Punched in the Stomach?
We had a Co-Manager's Meeting yesterday.
I came out feeling like I had been hit in the stomach
energetically. It was distracting and in my energy field all day.
Date: 11/13/2008 9:03:22 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1148 times
9:43 AM
November 14, 08
I appreciated Chef Jem expressing himself here
on A HISTORY OF PEACE ON EARTH:
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1298669
6:33 AM
November 13, 08
I felt like I got punched in the stomach yesterday.
We are on a journey here to do a massive Clearing on this property,
The Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.
The Process has been on-going for months.
I worked on my Stuff that had been in the Basement
for at least six weeks.
This was a horendous, debilitating Process.
I have decades of Stuff, literally Decades.
I can not say for sure all of the Psychological and Emotional
Innerweavers that Possess a Person to Hold on to Things.
One of the clearest explanations came from a very old audio
cassette I found in the Rubble last summer, when we first took
on this Herculean Task of getting into the Basement.
The Basement:
The Enchanted Garden here is about 1/3 acre about four blocks
for a 35,000 student population, San Diego State University.
The house itself is two stories with a subterranean Basement.
The architecture and design of the House and Basement are more
suited for a small family, not a place for a group that aspires to be
community to live.
William Spear, one of the great Feng Shui Focalizers of our time,
author of FENG SHUI MADE EASY, is a dear ally of mine.
I once heard him say some things about the nature of Hotel Rooms.
We are basically sleeping in each other's auric field.
Spear is a master of energetic medicine.
I imagine there are still some reading this who do not yet relate
to having an energy field as well as a physical body.
Spear meditates often. This increases the energy field and makes
it more dynamic. I was with him once at a design conference.
He stepped too close to the electronics of the overhead projector.
His energy blew out the bulb. That was not the first time that happened
to him. He knows it more as the rule than an rare exception.
In our house, we are all living in each other's energy field.
There is a constant need for Purification Practices.
Some of us do some of these, but not nearly enough.
On top of this, the House is not far from being 80 years old.
The Basement held an accummulation of Stuff, not only my stuff
but the Stuff belong to A#1.
A#1 has about six times as much stuff as I do, or so it appears,
now that we dragged everything out of the Basement.
My Stuff is in what we are calling Area D and some in Area E.
A#1 has her things piled ten or more feet high in Area B and C.
I have been taking funds from the Main Arosa Account to pay for
parts of this Cleanup. I asked Chef Jem to be in charge of Accounting
for Funds I give him, although theoretically, I could add up the figures
or make a Quicken Report. I have not been Slowed Down enough in
recent months to make such a Quicken Report.
Aside from this we are in a process of evoluting into a Co-Manager
Relationship. The aim is to share Co-Management thus far with
Chef Jem and Scottie.
A#1's stuff are a source of great stress for many of us.
The Straw that broke the Camels back in recent weeks has been
clearing the Basement, at great expense, and then, having her
move some of her things right back into the Basement.
Part of this can be attributed to Slippery Boundaries and Communication.
We never really Created a line in the Sand or came up with Agreements
RE: what was going to go back into the Basement.
I need to get on to other writings very soon.
I have not begun to Process the Results from the Pacific Symposium 08.
I still have things in the EG Mobile as well as in the Living Room.
My desk is a Mess. My bed is loaded with Stuff.
Yesterday was my first day home. I took the morning to have
a meeting with Chef Jem and Scottie. Then Scottie left after delivering
a Bomb.
He basically said he was looking at moving out coming January.
That felt like a punch in the stomach.
In spite of an extraordinary followup and powerfully healing meeting
with Chef Jem that followed, Scottie was in my head space and energy
all day. That pissed me off. It also brought up a lot of other emotions.
I came home feeling Powerfully Healed.
I have been down for more than a month with intense Diarrhea
and waking nightmares. I did not know if I could pull off doing
the Enchanted Garden Altar and Installation at the Pacific Symposium '08.
I did pull it off. I did it. I did it, thanks to Profound Service and
an Excellent Support Team, some paid, some Volunteer.
I was in a glow yesterday morning at the start of our meeting,
ready to take on A#1 and the Pressing Dilemma of what to do with
all her Stuff here, ready to take on calling my partner Sanda who owns
most of the house, ready to deal with Receiving and Cleaning UP
from the Pacific Symposium 08.
Then Scottie's energy hit me.
More Later...
RELATED BLOG:
http://curezone.com/blogs/fm.asp?i=1298244
There are also tons of blogs here
from the weeks preceding the Pacific Symposium 08.
You are welcome to share in my Process of Creative
as well as Emotions getting ready to do a Major Six Day
Long Event basically with my Bowel out of control
unable to eat hardly anything.
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