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Seven Love Cures #1 entry
I had an treacherous journey out of Orange County yesterday. I was doing extremely well during my stay with the Frog Woman of Seal Beach, but toward the end, our conversation
went into emotional realms, i started to feel things about xxx, my former,,,and then I started to binge my way down the coast home. My arrival in San Diego was better than usual...in fact extraordinary. I know I will be eating well today.
One day of binging was a release as well for all the dicipline
I showed during my roadtrip at the Natural Products Expo West
Date: 3/23/2005 10:31:02 AM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 2274 times This is my Garden Management Journal of
The Mystical and Amazing Adventures
of How the Seven Love Cures
came to be widespread and loved
and return to be a lot of fulfillment
GMJ; March 23, 05
I was pleasantly pleased with the strength I was showing while staying at the home of the Frog Woman of Seal Beach. She lives not far from xxx, my former. They have been good support for each other. This was my first time staying in the area since letting go of xxx.
The Frog Woman started to talk about emotional feelings she has having during our last hour together.
It triggered me.
When I left, I needed gas, but I could not negotiate the driving lines to get into the gas station where I normally fill up
in Seal Beach. Next thing I know, I am driving closer and closer to the gas station in the neighborhood of xxx!!!!
My inner child is starting to ask questions: What is UP?
My head is starting to give in to fantasies about driving by
xxx, to see if her car is there, but this is madness. The thought is fleeting.
I fill up at the station near her house. A part of me is thinking, well I have cut ties, but knowing her, if it is meant to be
she will drive right into the station.
All of a sudden, I decide to buy some donuts at the Winchell's near the station. In previous visits, I would suppress my emotions saying goodbye by stopping here for glaze donuts that reminded me of my childhood when the Helms man would come by in his truck. My mom would go out and buy me something. The fragrance is with me now.
I drive the EG mobile by the Winchell's Donut shop, only to realize it is out of business!!!! Wow! See what my absense in the neighborhood has caused, I quip!!!
There is a Carl's Jr next door where I have indulged, but my strength returns. I zoom down the street, feeling I have excaped with my life!
As I near San Diego, I am starting to have separation pains from the Expo...my life is so rich there. In San Diego, I am the hermit a lot, or the manager of our intentional community,
and this pains me to some extent with either the loneliness
or the responsibilities.
I decide to stop at Jimbo's in Del Mar to post one of the Dr. Jensen flyers. Michelle, who formerly worked at Whole Foods Hillcrest in in the nutrition section.
It gives me a chance to verbalize my feelings.
I am here to post this flyer about my tour of Dr. Jensen's on Saturday. Today is Tuesday. All of a sudden I am having
down thoughts about the potential of Dr. Jensen's place
being purchased by a group that might hold it in common. Society/culture has broken down so much in the years since he held that property.
He would work very hard traveling and selling his books and running a business to pay the expenses of running his ten acre place.
It takes intense cooperation and lots of helping hands to run such a place.
I was feeling the distance between people. Who knows how to keep land going in harmony with nature?
Who wants to? Who cares to?
Most of us are stuck in the rat race of working nine to five,
gettng our check, doing a few social things, and then on the next day.
How wonderful--those who have families and loved ones
to share life with.
But, few today in San Diego would want to make it a priority
to live in nature on such a place.
My mind was spinning at who might be able to
really buy the land and keep it going as a health sanitarium or retreat center.
Not many come to mind.
I know how much work that takes.
Times have changed since Dr. Jensen was able
to pull that off.
I suppressed my feelings with some roast beef from
a package and eat the whole thing.
Then I got back on the freeway having dreams of
Chocolate soy pudding and maybe a little comeraderie
at the Ocean Beach People's Food Store.
I wanted to post a flyer there about the tour.
I was very tired, but in route I stopped at the Container
Store. I got some plastic containers to help get more stuff out of my room. This made me feel good.
I also bought a new mop for the kitchen. I knew this would
make Anna, one of my housemates happy.
It starts to rain.
By the time I made it to OB People's food, the rain is light or nil. I find a space to post my flyer and go in for tape.
Upstairs in the deli, my spirit is upllifted to find that this is the lucky day when the chocolate pudding is in the rotation. I sit down and eat the whole thing. They are having an election for coop officers. My inspiration starts to come back, as I read the writing and read about a coop meeting
intended to buy an organic farm.
I start to imagine that Dr. Jensen's ranch could work for them!!!!!! They I thought of my old friend Makeda who puts on the Reggae concerts and has a radio show. I know she
is of the generation that loved Dr. Jensen.
I am inspired more. I buy some carob powder,
and three rasbery filled non wheat "fig" bars.
I am feeling like an elder, and somewhat out of it,
as I make conversation with the young kids in their
20's who are behind the counter serving.
I ask a number if they have ever heard of Dr.
Bernard Jensen or Iridology. They say no.
I notice in the bulk area that they have his vegetable powder.
There is a young woman behind the counter standing
next to a checkout man. She looks stuck up. Her hair
is in an interesting covering hard to describe...areggae fashion.
I have a range of feelings. Who the F**K does she think she is?
30 years back, I would come into this store and know
tons of people, not today. I hardly shop here, though
I am glad to be a new official member.
It feels good voting.
Then I head for Whole Foods in Hillcrest, my normal
shopping store, where I want to post some more flyers.
I am having diarrhea all the way down to San Diego.
I keep pulling off the road, but I certainly am not going to stop bingeing.
In Whole Foods, I am delighted to have someone call
me out. It seems that the woman, Shenona was talking to her friend, Jeremiah. She said,
"There is the garden man!"
Thank God for some recognition upon coming into town.
I sit down with them. Jeremiah offers me a chocolate chip cookie he has bought. I do not take one. I tell him I have been bingeing the last couple hours.
I show them the Dr. Jensen flyers, one for the sale and one for my tour.
Jeremiah's eyes light up.
He says he had already seen the flyer for the sale!!!
Wow!!! That sparks me.
It turns out that Mary Lee, one woman I saw at NPE Expo, gave one to Tamara, a friend of Jeremiah.
Shenona is speaking in behalf of Jeremiah. She says he needs a place to live. She says he wants to live at the Enchanted Garden, my place.
He says, he has wanted to live there for a few years.
That note of recognition also quiets my feelings now.
Jeremiah says he is taking a poetry class at the local college.
I had my notebook. I take out one of my Seven Love
Cures, "Your Creation!" I ask him to read it to Shenona.
He does. He iss very moved.
He says, that in his poetry class they have been studying
the great poems of world literature. He says that my poem
is better than 1/4 of the ones he has been studying in class.
Well, that certainly perks me up!
I pull out "Soulmates," another in the service
of Seven poems are intended to be read out loud.
I show him the promo:
Vitamin L is for Love
Seven Love Cures
These are words men need to know and women
wnat to hear. Speak these words. They are heart
remedies. Transform your love life.
Nutrition for the Soul
I ask Jeremiah to read "Soul Mates" to Sheona.
As he reads his throat chokesup and he filled with emotions.
He says something about how he likes the poems, comparing them to the poets he was studying in class.
He wants to take them to class.
We talk some more. He had been in Hawaii.
He knows of Phil Green and Norman, who I had spent
time with at the Expo. They are the new and old owners
of Kahui Farms, that makes lovely salad dressings and grow spectacular ginger.
Then, Sheona read "My Goddess Prayer to You!" to both of us. Her reading is really good, really really good. She is extremely moved by the truths in the poem.
"Being around me asks a lot. I, in my distaste for limits and rules, have plenty of them. There is a price in being with me.
You must learn to dance. You will have to move this way, and move that way, and then this way, and then that way, until there's no place to go but into the center of your being!"
So go a few of the lines.
So that's how it went. I ask him to call Tom Wootten to tell the story of his knowing of the sale of Dr. Jensen's Ranch.
He writes me a note about his experience with my poems. There even is an advertisement for Teeccino herbal coffee in the booth where we sit!!! I will be writing about Teeccino. I did photos for Caroline MacDougal just a couple days before at the NPEW.
We talk some more. I express my new revelation
and sense that these The Seven Love Cures could go out in many formats. I speak of my intention to license them to others. I would happily give away 50$ or more to creators
of frameable art, booklets, greeting cards, etc. I no longer
wanted to do it all myself.
Jeremiah said he knows something of marketing.
He is excited about making a little book of The Seven Love Cures.
Jeremiah bought a copy of "Your Creation."
Then later he thought twice and buysa copy
of "Soul Mates." That feels so very good.
I did not sell too many at the Expo, nor did I take
time to focus on The Seven Love Cures up there.
I was more focused on the Jensen sale.
Well this is the perfect homecoming!!!!
Hey! In celebration I buy one of the fruit ice bars.
I like-- the pineapple coconut flavor.
In all I pay about three visits to the bathroom while there,
but I leave happy. I know tomorrow will be another
kind of day.
"I, while sitting in the Whole Foods Market with Leslie
and Sheona was ispired by a collection of poems that is beyond any compilations I have seen in recent years. Even the best poets of all time are now made to see a peer
in Leslie Goldman."
Jeremiah E
Oh Thank God,
it is raining more
and this is making me oh so happy.
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