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Day #11 Post MC-Day #1 Mood = Guilty
i cant wait for af to end. just having dh sleeping next to me makes me want to pounce on him...yep we sleep in the nude...but then again doesn't every married couple ? The mc has created a monster ;o) i just feel positive about all those around me...and it seems like i am totally inlove with dh...he was d
Date: 6/29/2005 1:40:42 AM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 1849 times i had my OJ this morning. Then mom was grilling fish and..i had a piece :o( nothing on it but cayenne and onions...ithe cayenne on the fish made me do it...hehe..bad i know..i kindda justified eating the fish cause it was liberally sprinkled with cayenne...oh well, im back to drinking my lax tea....let bygones be bygones right ?
i cant wait for af to end. just having dh sleeping next to me makes me want to pounce on him...yep we sleep in the nude...but then again doesn't every married couple ? The mc has created a monster ;o) i just feel positive about all those around me...and it seems like i am totally inlove with dh...he was driving me back from work yesterday...and i was sitting beside him and couldnt help staring at him...he is the most gorgeous, loving, caring man ever..well he caught me staring and went "why are you staring ?"..and all i could do was smile...cheekily...and then he grinned...see what i mean ?
he started the mc today...so far so good...he made his bottle of limeade..there were problems with the car so he had to see the mechanis..and he carted along 1litre of limeade and 2.4 litres of water...i feel bad for him having to do this alone...i'm tempted to start the mc again just cause of him....and of course it helps with my body too :o)
Anyways, we're out of bentonite and wonders of all wonders can't find it anywhere...going to have to order some in..so that dh will be able to do the p&b shakes...he took his swf this morning...i made it for him..and he gulped it down faster than i did...but he also ran to the bathroom faster than i did ~grin~...i'm proud of him
anotehr thing, while on the mc i think on Day#8 i had a dream of my ex-bf...it was out of no where...and when i woke up i wasnt in a great mood...i mean the dream was nice..nothing bad in it..except i woke up with all those old feelings and emotions of love and care for him..he is greek and we basically spilt up cause of the distance between us and it was tough..cause he always felt we were soul mates...i guess i too felt we were soul mates..but i know we arent the best for each other...we're too much alike...we completed the same Masters in Science degree..and just everything the way we make deductions, think, react.....its all too eerie...
With dh, he is my counterpart....he is nothing like me...when im impatient he is patient...when i want to cry he makes me laugh..the thing about my ex and i is that we're both worriers...worry-ers..not warriors...and that's not good....i wanted to tell dh all about the dream (he knows my history inside out as we were friends first before anything else) but by the time i got home that night..the feeling went away...i am not sure if it was the mc stirring all these past emotions up...but i am glad if it was the mc and it is now out of my system...it was in another life.....
i'll end now....this blog has gone all over the place...vegetable broth for me tomorrow :o)
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