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Good Morning's
My headache was dull and I felt so glad (yes, glad is the right word) to be on the third day of my fast. I am surprised I made it through yesterday.
Date: 8/24/2005 12:04:15 PM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 1665 times August 24, 2005 @ 9:29 AM
This morning I woke up next to my daughter. She was laying on her back gazing up at the ceiling and looking so relaxed, as she often does. She is thirteen months old and ever since she noticed how her dad would lay back on a pillow in bed and read a book--she has wanted to do this. So this morning began as most mornings do...she lay back on a pillow and when our gazes met she signed "book". So Sweet. My headache was dull and I felt so glad (yes, glad is the right word) to be on the third day of my fast. I am surprised I made it through yesterday.
I wanted to eat at so many points throughout the day...I can't believe I managed to keep my mouth shut! I even felt sure at one point that I was going to give in...it is a feeling I have had often and have always, until yesterday, given in to. It feels good to be here. I am dreading the night though. Nights are so hard for me. I guess I should come up with a plan for tonight and any other hard nights...suggestions appreciated.
My husband has been very supportive. Last night he answered all of my complaints in his usual sensitive way. It is one of the things I admired about him when we began dating. He taught me to play pool, snowboard, among other things and he was always so positive, "You are doing it! You're doing great! Ahh, see we are going to win." So he really helped me by just letting me complain, but never saying, "Yeah, you should give up. It is OK to quit." Instead he said things like, "You're right I don't know how it feels. Sweetie you can do it. Go to sleep when you wake up it will be the third day. I'm proud of you." He also came home with a bag full of lemons and limes...
I am sure his support isn't without hope. Hope that this time I will stick to the fast. Hope that I will start working out again. Hope that his once active wife might be somewhere on the other side of this lemonade fast. And I don't blame him for wanting me back the way I was...I do too.
My sister is here from Hawaii...she is entertaining my little girl which is why I got to write such a long post!
Thank you for being out there...my real but imaginary suport group.
Here is to the third day!
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