Re: Hmmm...

when love and hate is soo strongly intertwined in your mind and heart as it is with mine..you have to learn to love wisely or else it will be very costly.I simply cannot love without hate..and I do eventually hurt the ones I love the most,that pain,that turmoil,that tension and the wounds are what binds us soo tightly together.I can't merely just 'love' for the sake of 'love' of just loving..it has to be my all and it has to be all or nothing..and it also has to have a strong hatred in the equation..
I love as strongly as I hate..it's just how I was brought up.The only way I learned how to love..was through sheer hatred and resentment.I cannot love without it,without the extreme polar opposite there is no passion,no lust, no redemption...no chemistry.

The stunningly beautiful though cold hearted nasty mouthed bitch that really turns the knife in my heart also gets my blood boiling and my pace up like no other could..I would rather have her then a girl that did nothing but sat pretty and was so oh compliant and pleasant.

if this is not love but something else,then shit..it is all I know as of now...

maybe it will change,maybe it will not..