WHAT is EATING YOU?

As I read your posts what came to me is "I can't stomach this!" You've puked, you've fasted and now you can't eat. Seems to me that your body is giving you a pretty loud message. What is it that you can no longer take?

IT IS OK FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY, HEALTHY, FINANCIALLY SUCCESSFUL AND SELF-SUFFICIENT!!!

It seems that you could be on the verge of some major and very positive life changes with the publication of your book. Often when we are about to have a significant breakthrough such as this all our 'inner demons' will kick up a real fuss to keep us from making that leap. Change...even for the better...very often brings a lot of fear with it because we are entering the unknown and also because a part of us IS DIEING! It is common for a sort of grieving to take place as we let go of the person we were and all the comfort of being that person...even if we are miserable. Did you experience any difficulties when you lost all that weight...a new you? Do you feel worthy of being happy, healthy and financially successful? Do you have the courage to make that leap?

As Aye said, some spiritual practice is in order.

And so are a lot of electrolytes to replace all those you've lost while purging.


*You weren't frequently using ipecac while you were bulemic, were you?