Day 6 of Post Water Fast
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 5/4/2011 3:52:26 PM ( 9 y ) ... viewed 9203 times
May 1, 2011
It was a very long day for me. I didn't get home until after 4 a.m, as I was having to much fun over at Christy's house. I was really not certain if I would have the energy or the motivation to go to church, but I did. I woke up once around 9:30 a.m. as I had to go to the bathroom, but I went back to bed for another hour before I really got up and got ready for church. As I was getting ready for church, I turned on the radio to see how the weather was. I was listening to some church service, that as far as I could find out that it was from St. Timothy Lutheran Church. The pastor "caught" my hear, when he said that St. Thomas was the daredevil of the group, that he was some honky tonk type of an apostle, as he was one that was touched the open wounds in Jesus wrists. He used the words "I dare you, I double dog dare you". It was really funny how he described Thomas as such. LOL. I was really awake for church and looking forward to it when I left.
I know that this isn't something that anyone wants to hear, but I had healthy BM. It is the first since I broke my water fast. It was wasn't easy but once it was, it was very healthy. It was what one could find in a healthy BM. I say that because I have read what is healthy and what is not. I have found that I was a bit gassy, which I know that is a little bit typical with me when I have broken a fast.
It was a really good sermon, as it was about the Armor of God, but set in a different way. I can't say that I was excited about the subject, but the pastor said that, since the Armor of God has been over talked and over used, that we might over look somethings. He explained that the Armor of God wasn't used to protect us from the battles of life, but protect us so when we are in a battle, it is to help use be strong and move forward in the battle. I had never seen it that way before, so I think this sermon helped me more now then any sermon that I have ever heard about the "Armor of God"
After church, I went to Panera for after church lunch. I thought it would be nice to enjoy a little something nice, since I was really hungry. I picked a fruit cup and a cup of tea. Everything looked good, but I reminded myself that I don't have to eat all kinds of junk. I have good food at home to eat. So I kept it very simple and cheap, as Panera can be expensive. I sat at a little table by the window and read my "Sarah" book and my little bible. I was following the "Sarah" story in my Bible as well. It was fun. I had a elderly guy ask me if I could read that print. (in my bible, as it is small) I told him yes I could, but embarrassingly, I probably should be wearing my reading glasses, since it probably is just straining my eyes. I bought a pair on Saturday so that way I always have them on me. I have a pair at home, that I use once in a while. The only pair that gets used regularly, is the pair I got prescribed to me when I was still in college. I use them at the office every day.
After Panera, I went to the Creator's Guild's Art show. I was really excited about seeing all the created things that these group of women did. They were people that crocheted, knitted, quilted, etc. I filled out a little ticket, as they were having a small raffle to win things at were on the table. I looked briefly at the stuff, but I was more interested in the quilts hanging on the walls and the stuff on the table. I was looking not far from the entrance table, when they were calling the first person for some other raffle that was going on across the room. I didn't look at my ticket, as I hadn't even gotten over there, so I knew that I didn't sign up for that one. It seemed that the person couldn't pronounce the person's name, so they announced the address on it, which shocked me when they said "Lot 72", which I realized that was my address. I said "that is me!" shockingly. I appoligized that I didn't realize that it was the same raffle, since it seemed to me to be an different raffle across the room. The lady told me that she had to announce it over here, because that is where the PA system was. I was the first winner, so I had my pick of the table. I was shocked and excited at the same time. I picked the little lap quilt made up in purple colors. There was a lovely purse, and other things, but I really liked the quilt the best so that is what I picked. I told them this has encouraged me to start quilting again even more, since I had been wanting to pick it up again. I still couldn't believe that I won something! It was great. I spend the next hour 1/2 carefully looking at all the created things. I really loved the quilts and the crocheted items. I wasn't too much into the center pieces, but everything was really lovely to look at. It was so encouraging to my own crafty talent.
Afterwards, I went home and relaxed a bit. I called my mother, but she was not feeling great, so I had to leave a message with Aunt. I called my father and talked to him about 30 minutes. It was a good conversation. I read my "Sarah" book and finally took a little nap, waiting for my next "event" of the day to get here. I fixed some broccoli and ate a bit of along with some strawberries, when I got hungry.
Around 5:30 p.m., I had a shock as I was driving to the the revival early. I saw the guy. He was in his car, all confident and stone faced as I have seen him so many times before. He was driving on the other side, so I turned to look at him, and he purposely turned his head aside so I couldn't see his face. Once I saw the car, and realized it was him, I went total numb and I felt like my whole body was made of ash. I was near Christy's house, so I went there. She was surprised to see me, so I explained why I was there. She said she understood how it affected me, because she said I looked pale in the face. I sat down for a good 45 minutes trying to keep my mind busy and off of the guy. I never expected it to affect me as it did. I told her that I didn't want to go to the Revival now. Ashley who was there told me to go and enjoy myself regardless. I don't think she understood why it affected me so. Christy did. She even said that even thought it ended badly, seeing him still affects me, because in my heart, I still cared about him and loved him. Christy couldn't have said it better then I could have said myself. I was afraid that I might lose strength and text him. I didn't but it didn't make me feel any better to see him driving around in his car.
I thought about going to the Revival, but decided to go to the park. I stopped by McDonald's to use the bathroom, so I didn't have to go all the way back home to go to the bathroom. After wards, I went to the park and listened to my MP3 player. It started to get rainy, but it didn't stop me. I walked up the big hill, and looked down at everything. It was beautiful. I walked back down, getting my shoes and pant legs all muddy, from all the rain we have had over the last couple days. I went to the playground part of the park and sat in a swing for a good half an hour. It was lovely. I couldn't remember the last time I swang on a swing. It was very freeing for me. To push up toward the steel gray sky and reach up for it, even if only by swing. I took my time, when I was done swinging, to smell the lilac trees around the park. I took a small sprig of Lilac home with me, so I could smell it. The lovely Lilac smell helped me feel better then I had been hours before.
I can't say that I felt very good still. I was really looking forward to talking to Jason, as he asked if he could talk to me today, during our short conversation yesterday. I said Yes. He never did call, but I am not upset about it. I am just done with it. I am tried of feeling horrible as well as having a guy say they are doing something and they don't. The guy did that enough times with me, that when he didn't fall through with what he said, I didn't take action to make sure that he knew that I wasn't going to put with it. So, if Jason does call again, I will tell him how I feel about it. I will tell him I don't need a friend or even a guy in my life that says one then and does another, without having a good reason. I guess I will just see what happens, but I am not worried about it. As of right now, I have washed my hands of it.
When I got home a bit down and wet, I shed my clothing, took a long shower and got into bed. I was making sure that I got to bed on time and wasn't up to all hours of the night. LOL Mekong was happy to have me close, and I struggled to read my books, but it felt too good to lay in bed, that I wasn't interested in reading at all.
LUNCH: (around 12:45 p.m.) Small fruit cup (strawberries, cantaloupe, melon, grapes and pineapple)
DRINK: Orange mint Tea (about 12 ounces)
SNACK: (around 3:15 p.m.) Strawberries
DINNER: (around 5:15 p.m.) 1 cup of streamed Broccoli and 2 cups of mixed leafy greens and three sprays of basalmic vinagrette
EXERICISE: walked 4.89 Miles,
WATER INTAKE: 24 ounces of water
WEIGHT: 115 pounds
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