I’m really glad I have made it this far on the fast. The benefits have far outweighed the struggles. I don’t know why anyone would call this a quick fix plan. This has been and is hard work. I think it’s a wonderful start to saying “no” to myself and learning some discipline. Each day that I wake up and decide to continue, each time I see something tempting to eat and say, “no” my confidence and self esteem rises. Each day the clothes are looser. It’s a wonderful feeling.
Also, up until very recently, I would lie awake at night in the quiet before drifting off to sleep and think about food. I would think about what I craved: a cheeseburger being at the top of the list. Anyway, I enjoyed thinking of these foods that I take pleasure in. But was also disturbed by it because I thought, shouldn’t I be wanting more healthy options? How will I fare after this fast? Because for me fasting is not a tool I want to use for binging and then purging (fasting after I eat cheeseburgers for three days). That’s not healthy and abusive to my body. The whole point of fasting for me is to get a healthy mindset about food and giving my body fuel to live on. No more gluttony. During this past week the food thoughts have tapered down. A cheeseburger still sounds good and always will because it’s my favorite food (currently). However, I have also been heavily thinking about what plan to choose when breaking the fast. That will be the most important decision I will make. Atkins? No way. Been there. Done that. Eating to Live, McDougall, Fat Flush, Fat Smash? There are so many options and it can get confusing. A lot of fruits and veggies appeals to me with small amounts of lean protein and brown rice. That sounds like a good reasonable plan to me. I want to pick something I can live by and not a “diet” to go on and off of. I’m tired of that roller coaster ride.
Thanks Lilly & Gigi for the tips yesterday on my tummy. I am so glad I found Curezone and the wonderful people that are here. You have truly been supportive and your feedback is greatly appreciated.