the reality is that most people don't find someone they really want to be with for their lifetime. if you have then you need to take steps to be with that person. stop making excuses about "can't leave my mom" there are ways to make this work. if this is something you want, something you need, then there IS a way to make it work. bring her with you, bring him to you, find adequate care for her, commute, etc. i am convinced there is a way. i do not believe you are intended to let your chance at being with someone you really care about slip away because of your mother's situation. don't allow that to be your excuse as to why you can't embrace happiness. happiness can be scary when it is staring you in the face, reach deep down and grab hold of some courage and find a way to make it happen for you. that is my advice on this one.